i know i shouldn't be blogging now since it's work time.

but i have to find an avenue to share my emotions.

i tear again front of my boss today.
sometimes i just wish that my tear gland aren't that active.
sometimes i just wish that the supply of my tears aren't that surplus.

cheryl told me that she is leaving to settle her family problems.
i miss her. i miss her guidance.
despite what other people said about her, i still chose to believe her.
i still chose to retain my perception about her.

she said she is glad that she employed me.
she enjoyed working with me.
at first, she was hesitant to have me in because she did not want a fresh grad to be exposed to such a horrible industry- SALES.

i'm so sad. she has always been my role model.
the way she juggles life, work and family is really worth me learning.
i m sad that she won't be around for me to rely on in the future.
meaning, i will be all by myself.
but, i will have to learn to grow isn't it.

sometimes, i really think i m still behaving like a small girl.
i still get happy over the slightest thing.
people still say that i am a really simple girl.

the truth is, i am indeed one.
the ugly truth is, i can't chose to be that one.
the ugliest truth is, i am acting to be someone else.

but that is the only way to survive.
isn't it?
sometimes, i just think that i think too much.
too much to that extend that i need someone to shoulder that burden.

BLOG. can u be the one then?

MEISHAN. JIA YOU!!! :):):)